love is...

She just came out from a very important exam. She saw her best friend sitting alone at the tambayan, looking really dismal.

She approached him, a worried look on her face. “San ka galing? I was looking for you inside. You weren’t able to take the test.”

He answered with a sigh “I guess I would have to take it next sem then.” She sat beside him.

“Look at me. I’m turning 24 and I’m far from graduating. I’m a disappointment.” She turned to him and saw a few tears threatening to fall.

She flashed a big smile and then made a funny face.  “At least ikaw, hindi nag-aral kaya ka bagsak. Ako nga, nag-aral na ko pero bagsak pa rin.” She groaned.

He can’t help but laugh on her reaction. He looked at her intently, her smile still radiating. She’s still making funny faces to cheer him up. And then he said it…

I love you...

 

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She received his text. It read:

U dnt nid 2 say sorry coz im not mad. Juz tel me if you dnt want 2 talk anymore and I will understand.

But if you nid some1 to talk 2, im always here. Just a txt away.

 

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He’s 18. She’s 17. They’ve been together since 4^th year high school. But they need to break up. Her parents would like their only girl to finish her studies first. She gave back the ring he gave to her.

“I can’t wear this anymore.”, she said.

 

On her 18^th birthday, he gave her a necklace. His ring served as the its pendant.

“I’m giving this back to the rightful owner. I know you can’t wear this on your finger. But please wear this around your neck.” She tried to hide her tears.

He held her hands. “I will wait for the time that you can wear my ring on your finger. For the meantime, seeing you wear it near your heart is enough.”

 

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He missed work for 2 days already. He’s worried that he can’t meet his deadline.

She knocked before letting herself in. “I brought you soup. Are you feeling better?” She asked with concern.

He shook his head with a firm NO. He noticed her drop some blueprints on the table.

“What are those?”

“Your design.”, she replied hesitantly. “I finished your draft. I know that you can’t work on ‘em and I was afraid you’re gonna miss your deadline. I hope you don’t mind.”, her voice still very unsure.

“When did you finish that?”

“Last night.”, she said nonchalantly.

“Didn’t you have plans last night?’”

“I cancelled.”

“What?! You've been anticipating it the whole month!”

“It’s both our asses on the line if you weren’t able to finish that. No biggie!” She helped him up and seated him in front of well-prepared meal.

“Kain na.”, she added. “Ako nagluto nito.”

 

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It’s 1 am. He yawned as he glanced at the clock. He decided to take a quick nap before going back to business. He was about to close his eyes when his phone rang.

“Hon?”, his girlfriend on the other line. The urgency in her voice made him stand up.

“Hon, bakit?”

“Matutulog ka na ba?”

He sighed as he looked back at the inviting bed. “Hindi pa naman. Bakit?”

“Busy ka?”

“Hindi naman.”

“Punta ka naman dito. Namimiss na kita eh.”

“Sige. Wait for me. I’ll get the keys to the car.”

“Thanks, hon. See yah in a while.”

He took one fleeting look at the tons of paper work he needs to finish by tomorrow morning. I need to stop over a coffee shop for a strong espresso. I have a long drive ahead of me.  

He closed his eyes and he could see his girlfriend face light up as she runs to him for a firm hug. She would then give him a peck on the cheek.

It’s all worth it.

 

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His loud snore woke her up. It was like angry thunder before a menacing storm. She stood up, ready to pounce on the sleeping culprit. But he stirred, almost aware of the danger.

 

His breathing became calmer. His lips partly open. She can hear his silent moan. His hair slightly dishevelled, unruly strands fall against his face. She fought the urge to gently carress it off. 

 

Before she knew it, she'd been watching him sleep for hours. I can get use to this. 

 

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I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

-Harry Burns to Sally Albright

When Harry met Sally, 1989

 

antipolo

i remembered the day when me and two of my bestest friends went to antipolo just for the heck of it. the barkada was supposed to meet up at Mcdo Philcoa, as usual. and only the three of us showed up, as usual. sharing a pack of cig and drinking out hearts away, we looked down on the city (we were seated at the middle of Padi's and we can only see so much. icky lovers occupied most of the overlooking tables.)

we promised ourselves we would have special someones when we return there. pledged to leave our vices behind. it's been light years since and we still hadn't come back to Padi's. i wouldn't mind going there again, screw if i have a special someone. my 2 bestest friends are enough. they'd be my special someones. 

i still smoke every once in a while anyways.

last will and testament

it may sound morbid and greatly melancholic for me to write my last will and testament today. coz come to think of it, i barely have anything to give away. but, what the hey, i woke up feeling gloomy and i'm gonna write it nonetheless. so here it goes...

mom and dad, i know it hurts that i'd be the first one to leave. be rest assured though that wherever i'm going, i'll always have you with me. and i'll always be with you. i may not lived my life the way i wanted it to. or the way you expected me to. but the important thing is i lived. and i don't have any regrets.

all the money in the bank is yours. do what you will with it.

to my friends, i am who i am because of you. you'll never know how much i appreciated all the times we spent together. be it bickering, laughing, crying, or fighting. the times we spent together looking back and realizing how much we've accomplished. who we've become. there were times we just hang out and do nothing, with silence as our companion, and yet it screams a lot of meaning.

kid, after eden is yours. you may consider the book cheesy and corny. but that book and you, are one and the same. i can say that you know me best than anyone. you simplify me…

to rodyn, i leave to you my comic book collection. it may not be much, and it does not have all the perverted stuff that you wish them to have but i hope it would be enough. enough for you to quit your day job and start becoming the stan lee of the philippines. (a lot of aspiring comic book writers would kill me for this comment.)

bude, you are the most beautiful person i've ever known. you radiate innocence and naivety that kept me believing that there are still a lot of good in this earth.

sen, you're my conscience. pugad baboy na lng sa’yo. pareho tayong mababaw and i wanna hear you sincerely laugh out loud again.

my fhm collection is for my brothers. I can’t think of anyone else I can leave it to. be good.

to my kids (if i have 'em), all i can leave you is my memories. mom, tell them stories about me. show them pictures of me growing up. pictures when i was a stable boy on my prep school play. when i opened my first christmas girft. when i received my very first medal. when i graduated elementary, high school, college. my pictures in the beach, with my brothers, with my friends, with you. i hope they remember my laugh more than anything else. having them makes me even prouder as a person.

don't be afraid to tell them i made mistakes. and don't condemn them if they committed their own. after all we're all just human, mistakes would make them better persons. have them learn from their mistakes, and mine. remind them that their mother lived her life to the fullest. and would wish for them to do the same. they are my legacy as much as i was yours.

to my husband, if i'm fortunate to have one, i won't leave you with anything. malaki ka na! you know what's right and wrong. and most of all, you can very well take care of yourself. remember though, that you'll always be special to me. i gave up my name and single status for you. i think it says enough.

i just hope that if you find someone who would replace me in your life, she would be prettier, richer and smarter. you deserve nothing less.

to everyone else: i may have not mentioned you here but you have touched my life in one way or another. you know who you are. to the guy who offered me his seat in the MRT. to the girl who shared a conversation with me at the canteen. to all the strangers who have given me a smile. to all the children who let me hear their laugh.

I would not ask for anything more. I’m the luckiest person in the world. I never dreamed of perfection, I just dreamed. I smiled. I faltered. I cried. I laughed. I lived. That is enough.

a toast!

thanks to a newly found friend of mine, i have multiply.com. i've been trying to blog for a while now. i'm no writer though.

however, indulge me.

what is it with people and blogging?

blogging's like licking the icing off a beautifully decorated cake, having another serving of sundae, it's like taking a peek at pornographic website. Just like stealing a kiss from your crush, or farting inside an elevator...

it's tempting... it's insatiable. some people admit on doing it, some people don't. some, even proud of it.

am an engineer. (not officially, but what the heck!) so it figures that I don't keep journals. I always keep a calculator handy though. :) lately, I realized that i have been disarrayed and messed up for the past 22 years of my life. i reckoned why not start organizing now, even if it's just my thoughts?

so, let's lift our glasses. here's to my next entry!